goodbye 2009, hello 2010...

2009... god or bad year?

cant really tell...

good, in terms of friends. bad in terms of WORK, STUDY, and FAMILY

gosh,,,

this year, I think I am really a GREAT failure...

why? first thing is, my family.,.,.::::

ever since my sister's cam was broken, for a fault not even mine, it feels like my parents, oh not only my parent... everyone!!! everyone in my family did not trust me anymore,
they are under the impression that everything that comes to my hand will be DESTROYED,,,, hey that was not even me who dropped that stupid camera...
and the worst part is,, every single thing LOST, DESTROYED, or even touched in our house are now blamed to me,,,,
well thats the situation almost every year,,, only that it got even worst....

work.... gosh does this suck... i just think i am too preoccupied with my governor responsibility that my CAT works are all ending up like crap... cant go to formation because of plenty of meetings,,,, cant even remember to hand my reports in time because of so much pressure thinking of WHAT THE HELL AM I GONNA DO TO MAKE THE LAST YEAR OF MY CLASSMATE A ROCKIN' ONE... and then,, you end up recieving a bag-full of complaints... gosh! do they even know how hard for you to think of something to make their life easy and they think you can do it in a blink of an eye...
when they can say thank you instead....

and the worst is.... because of this loads of problems my teachers send me,,, I GOT A FAILING GRADE.... sucks for a graduating student like me...
imagine.... SENIORS CLASS GOVERNOR... cant even make it to graduation.... hate it...

i need direction..

I'm thankful though,,, I'm lucky in case of friendship...
met the coolest girls group in high school.... even get to be thier manager....
they are celebrities...
the BABY BOOM... that's what i mean...
live these girls... they make me feel I'm in a family...
with people on my back always...
although we had a little screw up last time... it's being handled...

and oh did I mention about the failures I have with my activities this year... like the part where I was unluck not to join the popdance... gosh was I a mess... I gav the offer up for the popdance because I thought I thought I need to focus more on football, cause all I tought the game will be by august.... and what the heck??? I ended up november.... sould have joind the dance instead....
I was such a waste that time.... dancing hiphop was my dream,,,, long time dream,,, and it was there right in front of my eyes,,,,, and I did not take it.... now... I am left with regrets... sucks.... i gave it up for, a jersey with the wrong number, and a now neglected player...... never imagine I could still play football this year.... had so much hatred towards it... ..

well what a suck up year is it... hope it's not gonna happen again....

I'm thankfull I have his blog... can sahre thoughts that only I would know... LOL....