so everyone right now probably are home from the Cheering competition at our school..... I did not watch since I don't want to cry again like last time(refer to my previous post).....
honestly.... at first, I really did not care,,,..... but here, I went through the news feed of facebook seeing posts like "CONGRATULATIONS RED SQUAD"..... like what the?!?!?!?..... and tears started to fall.....
I really feel sad at all..... indeed very sad...... yet, should I really care?????
I know it's my college but come to think of it, losing this cheering competition is just like losing the basketball game right.... I mean IT'S PRACTICALLY THE SAME...... but I don't even care about basketball or any other sport.....
but right now..... I feel drastically sad.... feels like my beautiful day was all blown by a strong wind...... and wwwwwwwwwwoooooooosh!!!.... everything was gone.....
and right now.... I just wanna come to all of them and say..... "okay lng kamu???"......
why do I care anyway????.... I was not even dancing.... I don't even like the atmosphere there (no offense)
now as I think of it..... I really think it's about me still having the ARTIANS spirit in me..... I mean I might have said a year ago that I did not really enjoy being with them..... but my subconscious right now says that they are my family..... and I feel bad if they are bad.....
maybe that's also a reason why I have this thought at the back of my mind that I wanna dance again next year no matter what.....
I might hurt people who would come to read my post right now.... but... that was the truth that I lived a year ago.....
yet now I think it's not like that at all.....
I LOVE my ARTIANS family.... (though I might have stayed a short and unhappy time with them)..... and I feel bad to see them sad,......
I FEEL REALLY REALLY DOWN RIGHT NOW.....
yet it's okay to feel sad right.....
ARTIANS YOU GOOOOO!!!!