[Dozed off]

Jan 13, 2012, I was busily having our rehearsals at MMB dance center... it was ‘kinda smooth actually, but ones in a while my mind would leave to somewhere... somewhere just inside my mind leaving me deep in thoughts............*think think think*

now I'm thinking, what would it be if I reach my ultimate dream (be a POPSTAR).... I mean I really want it.... really really want it... by then I won't be at MMB dance studio rehearsing but somewhere else I think.....

Somewhere else wherein I'm dancing with my girl group probably or just myself and have all the back-up dancers accompanying me through the routine.....

Really I was thinking of that with a big ~SIGH~....... when would that even happen...

well... if I'd be a Pop star I'm pretty sure I'd be more serious in training.... unlike how I act during ballet rehearsals..... maybe I'd be more enthusiastic if I do something that I like the most; not that I'm saying I don't like ballet.... of course I like ballet..... and I really LOVE it.... I would never put my life on stake just to join the recital if I don't love ballet........ it's just, I think I'm more interested in pop dancing..... I even have this subconscious thought, well now it's conscious, that I just put up with ballet for the sake of dancing.... since I don't really excel on hip-hop....or they don't just see me as good..... hmmmmm... okay I really don't excel.....

*sigh*

*deep in thoughts*

Honestly..... Why do I wanna be a pop star???? Maybe it's all for the reason that "performers just wanna perform"..... yeah!.... I WANT TO PERFORM!!!! I know I do performances i our recitals.... but the feeling of having fans while you perform standing in front because you're the star and not at the back because you're just so tall..... Those things are totally different..... It just so sets the boarder,.....

I wanna SING, I wanna DANCE, I wanna INSPIRE and BE INSPIRED.....

and I'm just so thinking, if I am to debut as a popstar, of course it would be here in the Philippines.... but I have to stop P-POP stereotyping and make music that would change the world..... and finally bring the POP culture to the philippines......

uhu.... lot's of dreams eh??..... they're not that LOT.... they just branch out widely.... and it all boils down to one thing.....

*shouts to the world*.....

HEY!!!! I WILL BE A POPSTAR THIS YEAR...[fingers crossed]!!!!! WATCH OUT!!!!

p.s: wanna see my videos..?? come visit my channel…http://www.youtube.com/gothichay I know I’m not that good… but hey…. I just need more and proper training…..