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♔ Responsible-Dependent

Tuesday, February 14, 2012 @ 6:13 AM
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Responsible-Dependent [020512]

yeah, so today is like my helpless day. i feel really really really bad right now....

first, my G-Tech is lost, and I can't find it anywhere..... I even cried looking for it (as usual)... I feel like I can't do very well on my exams if I don't use a good pen. yet it's just psychological.

second, my phone fell from the sink to the floor.... yeah great my sensitive phone.... well good thing it just dropped and not wet...

and third.... arrrgghh!! Can't beleive it!..... father got angry with me again..... another Trust point deducted!... well... I raelly didn't realize, I placed a mosquito killer in my room. yet I used a paper to filter the dust resedue.... It really did not sink in to me that paper is sumbostible and can catch the light the mosquito killer has......

and there it goes, he wen't angry...... yes it was okay for him to repremand me.. for I had to be corrected..... but then he hit my head with his towel hard.... and because of it my naughty switch went was activated ones again... and here I come again with my own theories...... he told me to get a can cover to filter the ash. so I went to the kitchen to find one. then he told me to put the thing off... but I was thinking, why would I? I places it to keep the mosquitoes away from my room....

then I told him that if I put it off then I'm gonna put it on again..... well I was thinking it would be a waste of time.... then he got angry again.... and hit me several times.....

arrrrggghh!!!... it was really okay to reprimand me and tell me I did wrong... but hit me..... I JUST HATE IT!!!.... and he even mumbled (again) about how I'm such a responsible student n school but such a stupid girl here....

I KNOW RIGHT......

I know I'm stupid..... I don't even do my responsibilities at school perfectly.... I know that.... and he keeps on repeating it... which makes me feel so bad even more......

now it just entered my mind...... if I were to be a popstar (my ultimate dream).... he would be the reason for me not to acheive it.. (even now that I'm fulfilling my self with my passion for ballet.... he's the one who always tells me to stop..... I WON'T!!)...... he won't trust me and think i'll just make a fool of myself......

really I feel bad..... I'm so stupid and my dad looks at me as the supidest person in earth....

I know that....

I'm so disappointed.... why does he have to hit me for me to learn.... and think of me of that way.... I mean.. yes I'm stupid... but only I have the right to tell my self and degrade my self...... he doesn't have to do that..... him doing that makes me feel really bad and makes me loose all of my dreams..... it feels like i can't turn to anyone because even sees me as a really stupid kid......

again... yes i am stupid.... but hearing that from my father makes me feel like i have no chances left to change....

I feel so helpless... and hopeless..... how can I even reach my dreams if I don't have a father to suport me.....

I'm such a fail.....

I feel really really bad right now.... but thanks to my K-pop videos... thay make me feel okay.... most esp the T-ara vids...... bad feeling go away!!! I'll just DANCE!!!!

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