................. so today the official line-up for our Event Management class was finally completed..........
and i have mixed feelings on it..... I really can't explain, there's a feeling of me being Happy, Disappointed, Thankful, Sad and all the other un-explained feelings....

so here's the thing.... like what I've been thinking of ever since the day I found out that the BILIB Awards was a Juniors project, I've been really dying to grab the whole event and be the head [yes, Event Manager that is] well, it's just yesterday that I had second thoughts and considered settling for Assistant instead. [by which I practically fell into.] so yes, I'm not the Event Manager, I the Assistant. [insert mixed emotion emoticon here]

so let me start with the first thing that stroke me earlier when they finally wrote Keith's name on the Event Manager slot. again, yes, Keith is the Event Manager]....... honestly, that moment I was SAD. sad because I wanted that job. sad because I was like snatched of my dream. sad because it was not me..... it was a sudden feeling of "That Should Be me"...... T_T

Happy, since after that Keith immediately assigned me his Assistant. boooya~!!. at least I'm not far from the work I wanted... and to think that being the assistant still gave me the authority to do the job of the Event Manager only that pressure is not on my hands [no more pressure, like the one I undergone during SAPI.... it was killing me.] hands up!

Disappointed; since again, I wanted that work. simply that reason. I was so dreaming of that job since the start of the school year, I was so ready to leave all the "leader" responsibilities I have and about to have, just because I want to concentrate on BILIB. I was disappointed at some point since I did not have the job and it was blessed to another person whom I remember to even have second thoughts on enrolling to Events class in the first place. [PLEASE don't get me wrong, I have nothing against Keith.... I love keith.... so huag kayong intrigera~! okay... ahahhaha]

and of course I am THANKFUL, firstly thankful for the classmates who went for me that moment we were voting for the Event Manager. there were even others whom I did not expect to vote for me. like what Ella did, I thank her for that..... and of course my friends, ITC, Faye and even Keith himself went for me and continued to give their trust for me,,,..... I was thankful for that... that time I feel like I was loved, loved by people whom I did not expect to trust me, and people who continued to hold on to me despite the doubts I myself have. Kamsahamnida...... secondly, thankful for ,again, giving me the opportunity to function in a position where I am not too far from my dream job....... and of course, I am more than thankful that the Job was given to Keith..... Keith of whom I know is very creative ans smart.... it could be no other person than him.....


looking back to the whole "me not the event manager" thing, I do believe, I strongly do,..... that GOD indeed has other plans for me..... I might never know, he's gonna grant me the plan B that I have been telling him for this Bilib event..... (we will never know)..... =))))
also I had thoughts of how amazing God is, that he wants this Class project be an open door for other people to learn... I mean let's take for example SAPI.. I was not dreaming to be the director of that play, [bitter pa nga ako] but he gave it to me to probably have a taste of what it is to be a director.........now I wanted to be the Event Manager, but he gave it to someone else since I had experiences of putting up an event already and probably want other capable minds as I am to learn about it [an yes, since I'm of experience, he placed me here where I am able to assist. like what my label is saying] ......right..... then again this is school, it's were we learn.... and I quote what one of our classmates said, "wouldn't it be nice to let other people who are capable and haven't done it yet to take the job,"... (I agree)
and there are just some people whom God gave the same job again and again to probably let them learn even more about that job and soon perfect it since it is really for them......

am I making sense? Yes I am.....

so right now my main concern is to put all the possible efforts I can to this event, and wait for the other plans God has for me [I am certain they are even better]..... and yes, be the best ASSISTANT that I can ever be.....


so yes, please look forward to BILIB AWARDS 2013.......................
[this is just a teaser, it's the cover photo on our group page.... ahhahaha]