today while doing my usual k-pop watching, something crossed my mind and I came to realize something.....
.........I become more worried over a thing where a lot of people depends on me rather than things that only I depend on myself........
it's like group effort V.S individual work.... or... leading a group v.z leading myself....
the reality is, at this point in time, I should REALLY be working on my OJT already.... other classmates are already hired, others are already processing thers already acomplished about 10 hours....... but me.... waiting (for that reply)..... and not thinking of other things......
am I lax?? or am I just lazy??? I think both ways are not true for me....
if I'm lax or lazy, I believe none of my school projects would have come out successfully..... right...
I think it's just that.... I choose not to worry..... [not to worry for myself that is..... in anyway or another I know I can manage].......
but then again, at the back of my mind I really should be.... if I can't go to Cebu for Internship, I'll stay here and take summer classes... and enrollment is already tomorrow..... but I don't even think of it.....
at this point I should really be worried since I should already have myself hired for internship... at least start looking for one here in the city... but it didn't cross my mind....
am I confident for that Cebu thing? honestly not..... I'm just hopeful; hopeful enough to avoid me from worrying over myself....
I'm having this "Come-what-may" orientation in my mind right now..... but then I choose to call it
"putting down my glass of water".... like what I read last time online. (here
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=528232207226958&set=a.132484886801694.34454.126587470724769&type=1)
so what happens now is that.... I'll wait until the end of the week for that internship reply,,,, if not, I'm going to apply in the city at my teacher's summer school.... (if I'm too late for it then I'll go find another) and try to squeeze myself for a late enrollment process...... (if it's impossible then don't take summer classes at all... LOL)
that's what I have been doing for the past few days..... putting down my glass of water and let the Lord lead me somewhere I should be going....
I know this does not even concern any of you out there....... I'm JUST SAYING..... =)