yeah, harsh reality at it's best........... just Graduated and officially said Goodbye to school..... and yes, I still don't wanna acknowledge it...
lots of thoughts go in and out of my mind.... and one of those is what is my next step?.... what?? I seriously don't know...... I don't know but I wanna know.....
it's just today that I am reminded of my goal in this life of mine, that is right after watching back episodes of Kpop Star, well wanna know what that goal is? you might wanna read my previous posts on my purpose in life.
it's just now that I'm, at a certain point, fueled to move towards that path..... thus making rise to my new mantra/moto [I quote from Hwangssabu]
"Don't wish for it, WORK for it"
therefore, I'm gonna do my best focus on that. all roads lead to my goal, all efforts towards THAT finish line... I'm gonna wish hard, and work harder.....
however fear never leaves me.... I'm afraid of that run I have to make to get to my finish line, I might take the wrong path and end up in the wrong spot.....
on thing that pains me the most is thinking about the possibilities, such possibilities that I'm certain will happen.
I was watching Kpop Star Season3 earlier, and I shed tears a couple of times.contestants talk about how much support they get from their parents for wanting to get to their own dreams, and other strive to survive despite their disapproving parents....... it just makes me think, will I ever get that kind of support when THAT time comes? or, will I be able to survive despite the lack of support I get?
it's scary to think of........
what pains me the most actually is the great possibility of working for that something without support........ or let's just say, it could also be the thing that would stop me from reaching my goal.... it would be the one that will pull me down......
I need to survive, yes, but I also need to survive with a happy heart.....
someday, I will get to that finish line..... I believe in God's hands and in God's time, I will end up where I am supposed to be.
my blog ends here....
wherever my future takes me, it will all be for God's Greater Glory.......
JANE FIGHTING!!!