I'm not really sure if I should be sharing this or not.... but it's just that....

I really hate my father right now................ I just feel like I will NEVER get the support I needed from him.....


we were having lunch when he went on asking me about the results of last night's Cheer it up... and kept on nagging about us practicing late in the night yet still can't manage to bag that champion...........
WELL YES BECAUSE YOU WERE CURSING ME ALL ALONG!.

seriously, I felt like that meal was a race.... I really want to get out of the table at immediately, I was seriously tearing up as I ate....

he doesn't even see me dance.... does he know I'm good..... does he know what I am capable of.....

you know, one of the most heart breaking things in your life seriously, is when you would come to realize that not even your own father understands you..... it's okay if he's disappointed.... all I just want is for him to understand...... this is me... I WANT TO PERFORM.......

now thinking back, it just makes me want to wish that we could have just won..... only if we could have just bagged that champion...... then I be more than proud to face him..... seriously, I don't wanna see him.......